Journey [traumatic version]

I know I can still smile and laugh, but I hate to admit that the trauma is still here. The pain, the loneliness, the sadness I've been thru and still dealing with.

Its like-- once you've been hurt, you get scared to get attached again. Because you are constantly thinking everyone you love will always end up hurting you.

As much as most of us hate to admit we still let past trauma effect our outlook on love. I know my heart was broken before I even dated someone, so when I say “it’s not you, it’s me.” I meant that. 

Even now it’s always me, but now I choose me.

And to the people I've hurt, I am deeply sorry for the pain ive cause while I'm still healing. You've been a great blessing. Rest assured that I am not gaining enemies here. Our ground isn't just the same, with pure intentions —you'll be forever in my heart and in my prayers. ♡ 


—first letter of alphabet 

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