Enter the void

Why do I end up hurting people unintentionally? 


I know myself enough to say that I have a temper that I sometimes can’t control. I’ve been pretty good at staying neutral lately, but there are things that just piss me off and once I get mad, I say/do stupid shit that I would regret right after. 

More and more, I have been questioning my own morality and perceived sense of self. it’s like i’ve been possessed ‘why am I doing this shit?’

Why is every choice i make so questionable like did i really make the right choice? 

Did i not just cause more harm?

Didn't i just take away all the happiness there was?

Why do i always end up hurting someone eventho thats the last thing i wanted?

I never want to hurt someone intentionally.

It seems like unhealthy patterns have played a major role in my dynamic, trapping me in a repetitive cycle that’s left me feeling emotionally drained.


Or maybe i should just stay alone forever,

so noone can get hurt by me anymore.

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