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Menampilkan postingan dari Oktober, 2025

Enter the void

Why do I end up hurting people unintentionally?  I know myself enough to say that I have a temper that I sometimes can’t control. I’ve been pretty good at staying neutral lately, but there are things that just piss me off and once I get mad, I say/do stupid shit that I would regret right after.  More and more, I have been questioning my own morality and perceived sense of self. it’s like i’ve been possessed ‘why am I doing this shit?’ Why is every choice i make so questionable like did i really make the right choice?  Did i not just cause more harm? Didn't i just take away all the happiness there was? Why do i always end up hurting someone eventho thats the last thing i wanted? I never want to hurt someone intentionally. It seems like unhealthy patterns have played a major role in my dynamic, trapping me in a repetitive cycle that’s left me feeling emotionally drained. Or maybe i should just stay alone forever, so noone can get hurt by me anymore.