2003

Its so sad to say that im still haunted by everything that happened and i loathe myself for it. 

what's the use of grieving over something that's not even mine in the first place? 

what's the use of wasting my tears over something that i know will eventually happen?

all of a sudden it feels like a heavy load has been lifted off of my heart that im over him. i like him but never too much that i would put myself through that ever again.





maybe one day i'll forget all the things about u, Cil. but i will never forget the way u made me feel. the way u left a permanent stain that can never be undone.

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